the politics of location

so I lied, people. & although Adrienne Rich had nothing to do with the bluff, she provides the perfect anomaly to satisfy my sentimental predicament.

first: location. here I am, on maisonneuve, in montreal, in quebec, in canada, on the content of north america, the western hemisphere, the earth, the solar system, the universe. second (for my favourite virginia woolf addict) 'as a woman I have no country, as I woman I want no country, as a woman my country is the whole world,' the politics of the body. a convergence of contradictory impulses. lacking absolute conclusions. to stay? to go? to return? I don't think I can do it.

recently & as previously posted, I have been listmaking with the passion of a thousand swords. today it is thank you card, rent, adbusters, the link, Borough background info, print meeting agenda, group two readings and commentaries (my canadian icons were the famous racist five, unfortunately), NY times article Re: bonobo pornography and female desire (check it out) term paper(s): media and women, women and the media, advertising, objectivity v. subjectivity, activist media, culture jam, all of the above?, presentation: Brettell, CB 'Inside the Glass Box: Editing the Women's Pages'

also, unfortunately, the tempo looks like it will persist this way until reading week, with three papers PLUS journalism on the helm of things to write. I forgot what drowning in mental tasks felt like for a brief little year there, but now it is back full-throttle. I dig it. (total sidenote: I talked to Terrine Friday (news editor for the Link) about her job the other day and she told me, straight faced, that she hadn't slept in thirty four hours. This, for me, was a premonition. psyched.) so all is well.

or is it? (stage left: a contradictory impulse)

the essences of ambiguity, essential & non-essential love, double consciousness, institutionalized relationships, deconstruction of experience, the limit of linguistics, babies.

sdb is devouring me.
I'm not coming back.

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while we are on the subject of listmaking, I posted something I think is clever on the manstream; can we overcome?

anyways people, it is 2am and I'm still writing, fuck. I need a warm body & bed. bonne nuit.