To total change and chaos,

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"You've done it before," he said with a shrug when I explained the triple-threat of change. His nonchalance soothed me—I could do it again, right?

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Usher in the new year:  writing emails, flying "home," sleeping off wpg, waking, dressing the fuck up (killer kit of fringe, lace, sequins, fur - FELTED MOUSTACHE), feasting at a chiiiiill-but-slightly-judgmental Holschega-Maisonneuve souper à maison (overdressed), escaping to a scene once midnight struck (dressed to imprexxx apparently), doingdancingdrinkingtakingitin 'til ten a.m., before finally watching as my boots carry me home through a quiet parc while the snow fell, to a bed that was shared with one who had taught me more about comfort and companionship in the last two years than I deserve(d), to... to what? To total change and chaos. To 2010. 

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you know I believe in this shit by now, don't you? So lets have it:

PISCES: Although there will be no shortage of changes and challenges in 2010, with luck planet Jupiter in your sign for much of the year there will also be notable successes and fitting rewards. Something that happens toward the end of February will point you in the right direction but you will have to wait until June to see any material results. However, the influence of your altruistic ruler Neptune will increase your breadth of vision and remind you that there are different kinds of successes. Friendships will flourish, especially in January and July, but a summer love affair will fade as autumn approaches and make you realize that some things are just not meant to be.

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le sigh*

* is a double entendre and may seem backwards at this moment of nouveau seule, but it is absolutely crucial to the plot that I have hung a portrait of a married couple in my bedroom.

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"In life, change is the only constant." 

Avi told me this while we sat at a busy Osborne breakfast place before LM made a joke about my half-shaved dome. Apparently, before his mother - my great-grandmother - passed away, she told him that she was ready because she'd seen everything - from a horse and buggy to a man walking on the moon. I don't think I will ever forget this, or the way my Avi's lined face and glassy eyes looked as they contemplated the idea. That is the mantra of the year. For sure. It's already happening, it's already happened, it's going to happen.

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to 2010 and the changes it may bring, 

yours solo and hopeful, L.